Talking to the faceless wall.

For the first time, I'm stuck to this 1 song.
And I really can connect about my long distance relationship with this song.

The truth is, I'm not a really big fan, hysterical fan or die hard fan of Bruno Mars.
I don't even find him bishie (LOL!)
But 1 thing I know, his songs....just magical. Only pure heart can feel this magic thingie. XD

Dengar lagu ni time tengah keje dekat MW. SV aku pasang lagu Bruno Mars yang kitorang dapat dari office hari ni.
Mula2 dengar lagu2 dia, aku cam 'ok, quite catchy. Just plain Bruno-ish.'
Tapi sampai je turn lagu ni, aku terdiam.
Sedap sangat, sedih sangat. Dengar je pun dah dapat rasa loneliness dia.

Hari ni, aku memang rasa gile lonely.
Ape aku mesej boyfriend aku, sumenye one way.
Kedit dia dah expired. Bertambah2 sunyi aku.
Dalam kereta, aku dah janji nak share lagu ni dekat dia, cuma aku tak gitau sape nyanyi, ape tajuk lagu.
Aku ni dahla malu nak share something ngan dia, takut dia kutuk2. Kang aku yang terasa hati sorang, kan? =/
Bile balik, kitorang Skype-ing. Tetibe terkeluar 1 topik, then kitorang bertekak. Hilang mood aku.
+++sedih pulak. Dahla mood sedih 1 hari disebabkan lagu ni. Huuu~
Perasaan terpendam dari siang nak bagi dia dengar lagu ni pun dah terpadam. =/
Lagi aku banyak fikir ape dia fikir kalau aku bagi dia lagu camni.

Kang dia rasa aku emosi, gedik, childish pulak. 'The song so gay' or 'Bruno Mars? Dafuq'
So aku batalkan je niat.
And keep it to myself.

All this while, I'm pretending to be strong without him around.
But this song, this song...got me.
This song gave me tears.
Listen to the lyrics carefully, my heart ache like crazy.
Automatically, all our memories flashback like some goddamn movie in my head.
He's too far away from me.
I'm too far away from him.
We're too far away from each other.

I've always wondered silently, keeping everything to myself without letting him to know what I really feel.
Well, I'm not that strong, right?
Can I cry now?
Can I?
Please let me.
Always pretending I'm strong, but I'm not.
Pretending I don't care, but I'm the one who always searching for him.
It's just....hurt.