FUCK VELVET SERIES SDN BHD!

Aku nak berterima kasih dekat bekas tempat kerja aku yang macam pukimak sebab terminate aku dari kerja just sebab yang tak munasabah.

Dorang tau aku sakit, they know it well..but they chose to NOT to believe it. Fucking fuck, much?

But, I really appreciated it. Aku pun dah tak tahan dengan perangai pukimak anjing dorang. Hari2 nak menganjing, memperkecilkan orang, tak adil...apa lagi ek?
Pendek kata, BABI la.

Terima kasih Velvet Series Sdn Bhd yang penuh dengan anjing & babi.

Even the manager itself is a bitch.
Head Supervisor pulak dahlah gemuk macam babi hutan, tak sedar diri. Kau bernasib baik sebab kazen kau aka manager ada back up kau. Kalau kau kerja tempat lain dengan attitude malas & curik tulang kau tu, tak lama lah weh. Jadi Head pun tak sampai. Tak guna dengan experience kau tu sume.
Memang patutlah korang kena sound dengan ex manager Pepe Jeans tu dulu. Sebab dah butthurt, dah terasa sangat, korang fired laki tu. HAHA nampak tak permainan dorang?

Aku memang takkan menjejak lagi dekat Miss Whatever, Girls, Heart Attack, Teddy Tales, Party Princess lagi.
Kedai2 sampah. Kedai2 penipu. Barang China cakap self design. Nak tipu orang lain memang boleh la, ni nak tipu aku. Ingat aku bingai macam korang2 ke?

Huh, 2 tahun 2 hari jugaklah aku bertahan dekat neraka jahanam tu. Alhamdulillah aku dapat jugak title 'kerja 2 tahun' tu. Senang aku nak apply mana2 yang lagi HIGH CLASS dari kedai rookie camtu.

Fuck Velvet Series. Just.fuck.you.

Plain Tasteless Relationship.

Aku nak luahkan ape yang terbuku dekat hati aku, ape yang berlegar dalam otak aku, ape yang tak kena dekat perasaan aku.

Aku rasa macam hubungan aku macam makin hambar.
Tawar macam bubur orang sakit. Tasteless shit.
Conversations yang intimate sikit pun dia dah tak layan.
Nak bergurau bagai, silap haribulan gaduh jadinye.

Kenape camni ek?
Aku pushy sangat ke?
Aku taula dia busy nak buat online business, tapi agak2lah.
Aku pun nak perhatian.
Aku taula dia busy main game di hujung sana, tapi ingat2lah.
Seselamber aku layan main game dengan dia, aku pun nak bermanja.
Sebab aku perempuan(?), sebab aku ada naluri ingin diberi perhatian, sebab aku takde tempat lain untuk diberi rindu yang menggunung ni..sebab semua ni untuk dia. Takde orang kedua, ketiga.

Aku selalu cuba tarik perhatian dia bagi conversation yang menarik, nak dia lari sikit dari ape yang dia tengah buat.
Tapi aku failed.

Mana slack ah?
Sejak dia ada PC?
Ha'ah kan. Sejak dia ada PC, dia jadi lain macam.
Dia macam buat kage bunshin, tapi klon dia yang layan aku, powerhost dia buat benda lain.

Truthfully, hati aku tengah terluka, rasa low self esteem gila2, rasa janggal, rasa rindu tapi tak terluah sebab tak boleh luah sebab tak diberi respon.

Ketergantungan emosi? Yes.
Sekarang aku keje, aku mana ada handphone nak bermesej macam dulu.
Conversation limited sangat. Malam2 je Skype. Banyak nak cakap, tapi tak sampai.
Ape aku cakap aku rindu bagai tu disambut angin je.
Dia tak respon. Dah susah sekarang nak dengar dia cakap I miss you, I love you dah.

Hati masing2 diisi kekosongan.
Ini sangat menakutkan. For me.
For him?
I'd bet he didn't feel a thing at all.

Raspberry, I miss you so much.

As you guys can see there, that's Raspberry, my dear Xperia Acro S that he give me as a present for our anniversary last year.
Yesterday is a nightmare for me. I lost my soul whenever I think about it.

Semalam, masa tengah borak2 dengan workmate aku, Aweena, masuklah 1 lelaki ni, so aku biarlah dia yang serve customer tu, sorang je pun.
Lepas berape minit, sorang lagi masuk, dia panggil aku suruh serve dia pasal skirt.
Kitorang pun tengah khusyuk serve sebab dorang memang banyak tanya sangat2.

Masa tu tinggal kitorang berdua je, lagi 2 pegi break + tolong kedai sebelah buat stok.
Customer workmate aku tu beli 2 subang, customer aku pulak macam terburu2 pastu dia cakap dia fikir dulu nak beli ke tak.

Rupenye masa kitorang tengah duk serve dorang, ada lagi sorang masuk senyap2, pakai baju putih, dia slow2 masuk storeroom Miss Whatever, dekat storeroom dia ambik handphone supervisor aku, Sony Aino hitam yang dia tengah charge dalam kotak.

Pastu lelaki jahanam tu masuk cashier geledah tempat letak handphone kitorang, dia ambik semua yang ada dalam tu, tinggalkan earphone aku je. Handphone blackberry+nokia kawan aku dia tak amik.
Selalunye supervisor aku kunci laci tu, tapi entah kenapa masa tu sebelum dia keluar dia tak kunci laci tu. Dia lupe ke dia sengaja ke taktaula.

2 wallet, 1 phone, 1 tablet hilang free2 camtu je.
After effect dia.....sume orang cam nak salahkan aku semua sebab tak jaga betul2.....
Aku nak macamana?
Tak serve customer boss tengok dari cctv, nanti kena marah makan gaji buta....
Bila aku serve, camni jadinye.
Aku sedih sangat2. Aku makan hati sangat2.
Dahla tu hadiah daripada dia....aku jaga betul2.....tapi last2 hilang dalam kedai, tempat kerja, dalam laci!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Selama ni aku berhati2 sangat masa nak keluar rumah, handphone wallet sentiasa dengan aku.....
Aku tak boleh terima................................................................

Society saddened me with their poor morality.

Am I the answer to a guy like you?

Hey guys! i'm back! ^^
It's already February, and I'm on my offday now~ So relaxing~ >w<

Nothing much to say cuz nothing really happen. LOL
Stuck here in my little room in Bangsar, menghadap PC like...forever.

Yesterday I browsing le YouTube, and I've remembered about LeeSsang's song that I really wanted to hear (sebab selalu dengar lagu tu jadi BGM Kang Gary bile dengan JiHyo) ~<3

You know whut?
The lyrics are too deep .____."
My boyfriend should give this song to me! DX
Sebab boyfriend aku ni dungu2 gak. Aku sakit hati mana dia tau kan. ">____>
I'm beginning to love this song so much <3
Bukan sebab there's Gary (saranghae Kang 'Gaelly' Gary!)
Tapi mesej lagu ni deep sangat.
Mesti dorang pernah kena dumped ni sebab dungu sangat. LOL

Oklah, sampai sini jela aku blogging hari ni.
Nak pegi masak chicken chop jap. Lapo ni. DX

Byebye! <3
(Sorry kalau entry ni bosan. I don't care xDD)

Addicted.

Babes! I'm so missing you guys!
Before it's too late.... HAPPY NEW YEAR LAWL xD

It's been the most tiring new year for me.
I just can't stand working like a ***** anymore. HAHA but still, I'm still working there. =___="

This year...it's the semi-biggest year for me. LOL
I have to....ermmm...change myself a little bit for next year. U___u"
Starting to do everything....from learning to cook to~~~~etto~~uh~~repairing myself. LOOL

So, what's your guys new year's ambitions?
Or do you guys just stick at the same pace again, like 5 years ago?
Get up from there and start DO SOMETHING FOR YOURSELF!

Forever alone? Please actively find a mate!
Ugly? Go plastic surgery and be like ....

Too pretty but no friends? They just jealous of you! Go befriend with Paris Hilton! LOL

Well, this year really making me excited whenever I'm thinking about.....almost everything that can make me happy (LOL!)

Starting my year with re-following Running Man back again!
From the very first EP 1 until the latest so far.....(still stuck at EP65. HAHA)

This show really2 making me feel more relax and ease my tired-ness from work. Gimme a good laugh and cheer me up after 12 hrs tiring day ^^

I'm sorry to whoever thinks I'm too.....absently quiet this lately. I'm just too tired...and to start with those complaints, there's too much! So I better STAHP! ^w^"

Hope you guys have a good kick start this year! <3
And btw,

Salam Maulidur Rasul to all my Muslim friends ^^